i hate the struggle you can have with emotions. it blows my mind that by feeling a certain way can change the way you look at life, the things you do, the places you go and basically every aspect of your life. and when those emotions change it can alter your life severely. i dont like the effect that i let this have on me from time to time. so thats why im making it stop.
i like to think i have a very clear understanding of myself. like who i am, and how i present myself to people and so on. i know what i want for myself, and sometimes i would let myself get blinded, or sidetracked from going in the direction i want to be. but im learning to be more grounded in what is real to me. i am, and always have been a happy person. im just wired that way to have a good time, and to make everyone around me have a good time as well. ive been through some pretty heavy shit in my life, and still seemed to make it out just fine. so when something gets me down, or riles up my emotions, i've got to teach myself to suck it up! because if i havent been brought down yet by life, it would take some severe disappointment to crush me. and besides, whats the point of living unhappily?
so what im trying to say is, im taking the events that happen in my life, and turning them into learning lessons. tests to prove my stability. i want to be done with letting stuff get the best of me. i can be better than that. i have made big decisions in my life to remain as happy as i can, and i dont want anything to change that. so i guess the best way to do this is to say...
IM TYLER THOMAS LONG, AND I DONT GIVE A SHIT ABOUT NOTHIN.
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